Journal of a Lost Kid

Hi ag ain! So, more or less I am having those late night thoughts bothering me again. The big "what do I want to do with my life?". I think this is a question common for people like me who just seem to feel lost with what the purpose of my life really is. Feeling that I seem to be lost in another world where somehow I am not really that happy with who and where I am right now. Though, I am not saying that I am not thankful for what I have right now, I have a good job that could support me with my needs and sometimes with my wants, I have food I could eat, water I could drink, and a roof (although in a dorm) that can shelter me. I am really thankful with what I have achieved. I am a registered nurse, a public health nurse to be exact (that's how I consider myself right now, I don't know if i'm correct) and recently I am already regularized in my current company. I have a great family, although we no longer have dad with us but we still have our ever supporting mum ...

Disclaimer: This will be long. hahaha. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- Let me tell you about my days confined in the Community Quarantine Facility of the city where I work. I had tonsillitis which started last 07 June 2020, I experienced that common bodily reactions when having this illness (fever, body aches, sore throat, and inflammed tonsils). I decided to let a day pass before having to consult a physician in the nearest hospital of my dormitory. So, I self medicated with paracetamol every 4 hours for fever and pain and did some salt water gargle. The next day, 08 June 2020, I decided to that i should see a doctor so i would have a prescription for antibiotics, If I need some. So, i got up in the afternoon and proceeded to the hospital. Upon arrival, to my surprise, the facility has a No Appointment, No Consultation Policy as part of their measures during this time of pandemic, so there's no Out Patient Department (OPD) available....